You cant pen down everything.....

"I am an introvert!"

Well thats the best way i can explain my self if one asks me to do it in one word. But all throughout these years and all that i have seen in my relatively small but big life, i can say that i'm playing safe. Well did that raise your eyebrows a bit? Don't take your mind elsewhere, I am a normal guy. I'm socially well adjusting, I do have a lots of friends and i do feel loved most of the times in my life by all those who folk around me. You must be wondering why this contradiction. I'm not trying to shoo you off from reading my blog and that too with the very first post..... IMPOSSIBLE! I want you all to read it, go through each and every post of mine and be my best critics. Critics not for my writing abilities but for me as a human being. I bet you'll be good at it. Any person on this earth is a better examiner than a student. We human being are designed to be good at finding mistakes and not only that we are even better at telling the remedial and the corrective measures. Ah what an amazing creation of god are we! Thank you god for your lovely creation( I'm part of it). Whatever! All said and done I am not here to discuss all this. I am here to breath out( did you read the intro), so please bear with me for the next few minutes till i get over with this post. You can detach yourself from me after that. IGNORE! Well as strange as it sounds you must be wondering how come I have friends around me and if at all I have how do they get along with me. Well then I must tell you guys I'm not the real Shailendra Thapliyal in my day to day life. I am the Shailendra Thapliyal they love most of the time and hate occasionally. In short "I fake". Googly! Surprising though but I have read it somewhere and I am a firm believer of the fact that to be loved we have to fake, to be accepted we have to fake, to be part of the society we have to fake, to be what people want you to be you have to fake. Well I am a perfectionist as far as the art of faking is concerned. Just think about it, not for a while but give it some time and you will find the truth. Still unsatisfied? Ask me, I am even better at convincing. People do come to me when they are indecisive about a particular plan of action in their life. Well thats a problem with most of us. We know what we want but the fear of failure forces us to approach an ass as afraid as us or may be even more when it comes to his choice, for convincing ourselves to do what we want to do. Isn't it strange but we love it that way and that is how the best relations are formed. Most of the time you know whats right for you and when the other person feels the same way as you, you know he's the one. Life is nothing without these asses because they are your friends. Bringing out the best in you, letting you do what is right for you, being your best critics and more than that loving you for what you are they are the best creation of the almighty.

I'm here to write about them. I have so many unspoken things in my mind. Things I could never express and could never tell them. Praises they are worth and admiration they deserve. So many times when I was speechless, so many times when I wanted them to know how much I love them, so many times when it should have been spoken. But it was not. I know I owe them a lot and this blog is an effort to let you all know how much i value them. Without them I would have lost the path of my life. In this and the following many many posts I'll try and breath out and try and reduce the burden on my shoulders. I promise I'll try my best but bear with me because............

..........you cant pen down everything!